Silence

I need to learn how to sit in the silence of my life. The last six months of 2023 were extremely busy and stressful and joyful but exhausting. Now only a little over three weeks into January and life is slow. I’m bored. I’m worried about my “lack” of productivity. What even is productivity and why are we as a society so obsessed with measuring it? As if productivity equals success. Why do I consider listening to a podcast or music or watching movies or tv to be unproductive? Soaking in stories is what I love so shouldn’t I take enjoyment from it?

I know within in a couple of months the pace of my life will pick up once again. I have a couple of projects looming ahead. I have a trip coming up. So why can’t I be like Sponge Bob SquarePants and soak up the life and the things that make me smile? While I have the time? I hate sitting still. Ask anyone, I’m always driving around inside my house. The quiet makes me think too much. So I forever have background noise. Whether it’s music or one of my many comfort shows. Clearly I don’t know how to live in the silence of my life.